Sunday, March 8, 2015

The Rock at The Entrance to Heaven

Sleeping at this place
Or at least trying.
A stone for my pillow
Or at least it feels that way,
There is no comfort here.
I obsess and worry,
I have made such a mess.
I see steps that could take me away.
There could be happiness,
There could be One-ness,
But not yet,
Not at this gate to the entrance to heaven.

I want so much.
I want to be of help,
I want to do good,
I want to experience everything,
I want to be wanted.
I watch so many others ride up that escalator,
the one that leads to...
Well, I don't know what it leads to.
I stare through the bars of the unlocked gate,
But I don't go in.

What if all it leads to is oblivion?
What if there is no traveling up and down that ladder, those steps?
Only pain, then nothing?
No one will remember a thing.
I'm an idiot,
A fraud!
Over confident and messy,
Brash and hurtful,
Selfish and false,
No one needs me.
Soon it will not matter.

Amidst all this self-pity
I have one thing to hold onto.
It's that stone pillow
For my hard hard head.
It tried to make me comfortable,
In its own rocky way.
I asked for a place to sleep and it said,
Here I am.

In the morning I will be exhausted.
I probably will have slept but I won't remember having done so.
I will move on, because that's what I do.
I will leave behind the stone pillow
In this place
As my assertion
That I lay down at the gate to the entrance to heaven,
That I saw what there was to see,
And that maybe I will return,
And maybe not.

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

A Birkat HaMazon - Grace After A Meal

רַבּוֹתַי נְבָרֵךְ

All who sit around these tables,
Friends and strangers,
In peaceful conversation
And pleasant disagreement,
We take this moment to acknowledge
Whenever we eat together
That we are blessed
And, in our turn,
We bless.

בָּרוּךְ הוּא וּבָרוּך שְׁמוֹ

Blessed be the Creator and the created,
Blessed be the sustainers and the sustained.
Blessed be the eaters and the eaten,
Blessed be the feeders and the fed.
Blessed be the cooks and the meal,
Blessed be the drinkers and the water.
Blessed be the farmers and the produce,
Blessed be the baker and the bread.
Blessed be them all.

Blessed be the doers and the done upon,
Blessed be the freers and the freed.
Blessed be the leaders and the led,
Blessed be the tellers and the told.
Blessed be the prayers and the prayed for,
Blessed be the servers and the served.
Blessed be the teachers and the taught,
Blessed be the mediators and the mediated.
Blessed be them alll.

 בָּרוּךְ אַתָּה יי הַזָּן אֶת הַכּל

נוֹדֶה לְּךָ יי אֱלהֵינוּ  

Blessing us, One-ness,
Wtih the biggest and the smallest of blessings:
We do not lack.
Blessing us, One-ness,
With a history, ancient and current,
That is never boring.
We give thanks

וְעַל הַכּל יי אֱלהֵינוּ אֲנַחְנוּ מוֹדִים לָךְ וּמְבָרְכִים אוֹתָךְ  

Blessing us, One-ness,
With boundless Mercy
For all people,
All made in your image.
We pray for even a fraction of that compassion and empathy
That we may feel the joy and the suffering of all who surround us
And so that they may also feel ours.

רַחֶם נָא יי אֱלהֵינוּ עַל יִשְׂרָאֵל עַמֶּךָ  

Blessed One-ness
Making peace
Sustaining wholeness
For each other
And all the world


Sunday, February 8, 2015

God's Voice?

We may not be prophets.
We may not be able to hear God's voice,
But when we open up our books, our Torah, and read
Then the One-ness speaks to us:

  1. Know your history.  Know that you are all connected in the One-ness.  Know that it is possible to live in community in love and kindness.
  2. Don't worship false idols.
  3. Learn that you can disagree about deeply held beliefs without being flippant or disrespectful.
  4. Rest at least one day a week and make sure that everyone around you gets to rest as well.  Know that this rest is deep and holy.
  5. Honor the elderly. 
  6. Do not murder.
  7. Do not cheat on your loved ones.
  8. Do not steal.
  9. Do not lie.
  10. Do not let the desire for material things rule your life.

Rules to live by, plain common sense...
We know these things, everyone knows these.
But if we know this through Torah
Then perhaps we are in connection
With the holy
(Whatever that means
To us
On any given day)
And perhaps then
We hear God's voice,
And we are heard as well,
In holy conversation.

בָּרוּךְ אַתָּה יהוה
אֱלהֵינוּ מֶלֶך
אֲשֶׁר קִדְּשָנוּ בְּמִצְותָיו
וְצִוָּנוּ לַעֲסק  בְּדִבְרֵי-תורָה.

Blessed One-ness, who makes us holy with mitzvot, blessing us with the ability to know ourselves with the words of Torah.

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

A Prayer of Gratitude

I am so thankful. 
To be in the One-ness.

I give thanks for whatever love and kindness I have received
And even more for the love and kindness I have given.

I give thanks for those who have forgiven me
And to those who have asked me for my forgiveness.

I give thanks for those who work to sustain us
And those who work for sustainability.

May I never take any of this for granted.

Blessed  HaMakom,  this Place is so amazing.
God is goodness, and good things happen.