Sunday, December 15, 2013

A Mourner's Kaddish



Layer Upon layer of attempts to describe the Indescribable.

We cannot help but be separate,

We cannot help but be part of the One.

It is our holy dialectic

In the face of the unknown

And thus our need for

A Name that will describe

A Name that will explain

A Name that will make it easy.

This is not easy.


But how do we name the Un-nameable?

We can but try.

Bless this endeavor;

It has made us so creative.

Bless the Eternal and the Glorious,

The Holy Wholeness,

And let us say, Amen.


It makes us happy to think about God.

Overarching and unseen.


We have absolutely no idea what the truth is,

But we are blessed with this burden

Because we need to describe what cannot be described,

Because we need structure in the face of the vast mysteries,

Because we go on and on and on.  

And then, one day we don’t.

Blessed One-ness.


We pray, these are requests for meaning despite our doubts,
Despite our fears,
Despite the loss of love and loved ones.

May these prayers be answered,

As unlikely as that may be,

You never know.

And let us say, Amen.


And may the Un-nameable be sanctified

And the Names we have invented to name the Un-nameable be sanctified

And may The Name we invented to name the names we invented for the Un-nameable be sanctified.

Layer Upon Layer of attempts to describe the Indescribable,

Those layers allow us to touch the awesome truth

And still be safe.

May our creations flourish and survive our limitations.


Bless The Name of the Names of the Un-nameable

Now

Until

Then.

Layer Upon Layer

May all our prayers be understood,

And let us say, Amen


Blessed One-ness.

However we understand this on any given day,

Making peace and

Sustaining holy completion

For us, through us.

For each other

And all the world,


And let us say, Amen.

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Holy Wholeness: A Kaddish Shalem


How can a name be great?
Why exalt a name?
Why do we need a Name?
From Before Time Was,
During Time As it Is,
After Time Which Will Be
Bless the Ancestral God or your Personal God 
Or the God of Our Current Understanding or lack thereof,
And let us say, Amen.
  
Bless who?  what?  how do we name the Un-nameable?

Bless the names of God that we came up with anyway, because we’re human and we need names.
Elohim
Shaddai
Adonai
Shechinah
HaMakom
And so many more.

Bless the name, Hashem, meaning “The Name”, because even the inadequate names we came with are a bit too powerful for some of us to say out loud.
Oy, it’s complicated.
Layer Upon Layer of attempts to describe the Indescribable.
It’s a good thing we Jews like that sort of thing.
So bless our need for a name
It has made us so creative.
Bless the Eternal and the Glorious,
The Holy Whole,
And bless our imaginative attempts to imagine the Unimaginable.

It makes us happy to think about God

Even though we have absolutely no idea what the truth is,

That's never stopped us before!
Really, we can’t say it enough,
We are blessed with this burden.
We go on and on
Above and beyond these blessings
Above and beyond the prayers and psalms and torah reading
We go on and on
Because we need to describe what cannot be described.
We need structure in the face of the vast

So we make up stories.
We create a personality and voice for God.
It makes sense of of the apparently chaotic.
So let us pray for beginings and middles and ends.
These prayers of all the Jews, these prayers of all the world:
For life despite death
For joy despite sorrow
For meaning despite  doubt.
May these prayers be answered,
As unlikely as that may be,
You never know.
And let us say, Amen.

Let us go on and on
So that we may be heard
Let us shout if we have to!
You want us to listen to You?
Then listen to us!
And let us say, Amen.

To all Jews everywhere
Observant, religious, liberal, secular, cultural…
To all of our teachers and to their teachers
And to all their students' students
To all who study Torah
To all who want to learn anything
To all who need to learn,
Here or anywhere
May we be at peace,

So that we may enjoy our learning.
May we know our true selves

So that we can act with compassion.
May we find wholeness
And may we share the wholeness
And receive the same in return.
And may we have nice long lives in which to share and enjoy the good things of life:
And may we have an inkling of a smidgeon of a glimpse of
Of the shadow of the back of God.
Oh please may we know God’s presence.

Please please please.

Oh wait, God's presence has always been here

And always will be.

Never mind.

God doesn't need any names,

Only we do.
And let us say, Amen.

May we have the will and the luck and the opportunity and the grace
To experience in our short lives:
Love, Kindness, Compassion
Sexual Pleasure, Good Food, Fun
Parents, Children, Family
Knowledge, Learning, Teaching
Work, Responsibility, Community
Rest, Gratitude, Companionship
Health, Forgiveness, Healing,
Atonement, Redemption, Salvation.
May everyone everywhere achieve all this
And let us say, Amen.

And may the Breathing Breath of Eternity
Grant peace
Upon us and everybody else.

And may the Un-nameable be sanctified
And the Names we have invented to name the Un-nameable be sanctified
And may The Name we invented to name the names we invented for the Un-nameable be sanctified.
Layer Upon Layer of attempts to describe the Indescribable.
It’s a good thing we like that sort of thing.
Bless our need for these names,
It has made us so creative
In our own small way.
Amidst the ongoing Creation
Of the Creating Creator,
May our creations flourish and survive our limitations.

And may we see the good things grow
And the bad things diminish
In our lifetimes.
And if we may be so bold as to hope
For the good things to happen
Sooner rather than later?

Bless The Name of the Names of the Un-nameable
Now
Until
Then.
Layer Upon Layer
A Holy Wholeness.
May all our prayers
Be understood
And let us say, Amen

God,
However we understand God on any given day,

God,
Making peace and
Sustaining wholeness

Through us
If we but have the eyes to see,
For each other
And all the world,

Shalom.
And let us say, Amen.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Amidah Meditation


A guided meditation that takes you through the essential points of a weekday Amidah.

You may stand through this, or sit and imagine yourself standing.

Close your eyes.
Breathe.
Open your heart
To praise, hope and gratitude.


1.   ANCESTORS

Imagine you are standing in front of an ark, praying.

You take one step back, and you pray with your parents at your side.

Step back again, and you pray with your Grandparents.

Step back again, and your pray with all the Jews who came before you, your great-grandparents, the immigrants, the Jews of Europe, Spain, Morocco, Egypt, the Jews in Babylon and Palestine, the Jews of Eretz Yisrael, of Sinai, of Canaan...

Can you see their faces?  Are they praying with you?  If they pray with you, then step forward and they will come with you.  

If they are not praying with you, step forward anyway.

You are now with your grandparents.  Are they praying with you?  If they are, step forward and take them with you as you move up to your parents.

If your grandparents are not praying with you, step forward anyway.

You are now with your parents.  Are they praying with you?  If they are, include them as you see yourself bow down with the burden and pleasures of your history and their history as you begin this Amidah.

If your parents are not praying with you, pray anyway.


2.  GEVUROT - GOD’S POWER

Rambam says,
If you can’t imagine God then you don’t exist.
Imagine God.


3.  SANCTIFY GOD’S NAME

Quckly, what are all the names and metaphors you know for God?  

What was the first one that came to you?


4. What do you want God to help you understand?

5. You are so sorry.  You know what you did. 

6. Ask for forgiveness.  You know what you need to do.

7. You are forgiven.  

8 Imagine one part of your body that feels pain. Imagine all this pain gone, healed and made whole.   Imagine the pain of the world. 

9. Pray for the Earth, our home, and all that it gives us.

10.  May the homeless be housed.  May the hungry be fed. May the exiled go home.

11.  May all judges rule with kindness and compassion.  May we always refuse to participate in wrongdoing.

12.  Do you have any enemies?  Imagine a place where they are your friends.

13. We ask for the gift of mindfulness.  Whatever you are feeling right now, note it and let it go and go back to your breath.  

14. Let us think of Israel as the best version of itself that you can imagine.

15.  Isn’t it wonderful to be who and what you are?  Isn’t it just amazingly wonderful?

16.  Think about your prayers, your holy conversation, your kadosh kesher.  Ask to be heard.  

You are heard.

17.  Ask for opportunities to serve others with your gifts.

18. Give thanks for this beautiful and complicated world and this gift of life that was given to you.


19.  Shalom.  Salaam.  Peace.


May the words of our mouths and the thoughts of our hearts become joyful truth.
May the good things we pray for happen and, if not, 
May we never forget to hope. 


And when you are ready, 
open your eyes.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Blessing The Name


Bless Hashem, Bless The Name
Of The Creator of Light and Darkness.

This is sometimes hard to understand:
Blessing the name and not naming the name.
Perhaps it means
We are in awe
And can only touch the hem of the garment,
Not even the name itself.
But sometimes I think
It just means that we haven't yet come up
With a satisfactory nickname.

In Genesis
God created the wild beasts and all the birds of the sky
And brought them to Adam to see what he would calll them
And the man gave names to them all.
Did Adam gain control of the animals because he could name them?
Or was that only an illusion of control
To comfort Adam in his newborn bewilderment?

And sometimes I think
That the God who receives all this blessing
Watches us to see what we will call God.
Giving us the illusion of control
Over the Eternal Ineffable Unnameable One-ness
So as to comfort us in our spiritual infancy.

So we bless that gift of comfort and delusion,
One among many
As we come together,
To Bless the Name
Of the Creator of Light and Dark
Of Life and Death
Of Everything
We are in awe
And can only touch the hem of the garment
Not even the name itself.

It is so interesting.
It is so lovely.
We are so lucky.



Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Adam and Eve Invent Hanukah


.וַיֹּאמֶר אֱלֹהִים יְהִי אוֹר וַיְהִי אוֹר






We can't avoid it.
The days are shorter,
The nights are longer,
And it's cold:
The sun is disappearing!
Damn.
Isn't it enough to get kicked out of Eden?
Isn't it enough that 
We work in the dirt for a living,
And give birth to screaming moist creatures with giant heads,
Now God is killing the sun?!
What did we do to God this time?
Sheesh.
What's next, a flood?

Start thinking fast, kids!
Invent fire, clothing, houses, fried food
And rituals to bring back the sun.
Light the candles! More every day!
And cook up something comforting.
Will potato pancakes bring back the warmth?
We don't know but
They couldn't hurt.
So let us eat
By the glow of the hanukiah
And look into the flames
while we dream of overthrowing oppressors
with miracles of light,
As we spin the dreydl
And place our bets
And say our prayers
And our thanks
For the return of the sun.

Bless Elohim, the ancient God of our ancestors, creating light, making miracles and sustaining us through the winter.